LET'S DO IT. NOW. ;D

we just ran out of dishwashing soap. i'm tempted to use detergent powder solution instead, but the miniature Bitoy's in my mind, screaming, "HOY! MAY SABON PA!!" :))


anyway. it's wednesday again. tomorrow it'll be thursday.
halfway through the week now. i can't believe how fast time flies. i'm almost halfway throughout the semester na din pala, now that i think about it.
i look forward to graduating (on time, hopefully. not a year too soon, not a year too late. *Ma'am Carreon, hear my prayers. ). i'm pretty excited to fulfill my dream of becoming a doctor. i can't wait to take on my part in making the world a MUCH better place.

but then again, i don't want to miss out on a minute of my life either.
things can get way over my head and sometimes, i get lost in my goals, in my purpose, in my dreams and in my fantasies (since i AM a princess. HAHA.) that i forget that i actually have a life to live NOW, that i can actually make a difference NOW, and that i can be happy NOW.

the days will be gone before we know it. and all we will be able to do is to look back not only on the things that we did but also the things we didn't do, the people we refused to meet, the places we refrained from going to, the opportunities we passed out on, and the chances we let slip away.

i, like everybody (i mean EVERYBODY) else, was given only one life.
one single life to live.
one single life to enjoy.
one single life to screw up.

nobody knows what lies beyond this life but i do not want to be going there with any regrets in my luggage. so let's do the unexpected. let's exceed limits. let's defy the impossible. let's do it. NOW.

i'm living every day as if there's no tomorrow.
because there isn't one.

live.LOVE.laugh. :)

AYOKO NG NAGHIHINTAY AT AYOKO NG UMAASA SA WALA.
- yves meneses

earlier this morning, i had a lot on my mind. there was already a draft of what was supposed to be my blog entry today. but now as i sit in front of the computer, my fingers typing away, there's nothing i can come up with. i just feel so at loss for words ..

toto was probably right when he said once is enough, twice is too much.
i guess i just believe that everybody deserves the benefit of the doubt.
but until when? how do you know if it'll be worth the wait?

at a point in my life, i spent four years hanging on threads of hope. it took me a while to realize that nobody would be coming around to pull me up so i finally decided to let go and fall back on my feet -- on my own.
it wasn't easy, hanging up there? hell, no, it wasn't stroll in the park. it was pretty painful to have nothing to cling on to but forgotten promises. it wasn't just the burden of having to hold myself up that was difficult; it was the wait too. i woke up every morning with my hopes up and went back to bed every night heartbroken. that went on for four years.
and yet, i managed to make it through.

but it isn't something i plan on doing again.

four years was a long time, and i couldn't have gotten through with it without learning anything.

i now realize my worth. i know that i deserve to be with somebody who knows what he has when he has me. i know that i deserve to be with someone who will not make excuses and who will fight for me. i deserve to be with someone who will not keep me waiting.

i now know the value of time. there's no need to rush. i can't just get into anything when i feel like it, how i feel like it. because feelings are at stake. and i can't let myself be hurt by anyone i again.

i am now careful of trusting other people as easily. trust is something to be gained. and even after a person has seemed to prove himself, you can never be too sure. it's still safe to put up your guard and expect the worst.

i now know that it's isn't wrong to say enough. some things are meant to last, true, but, even if you want to, there's really no point in holding on if it isn't there anymore.

don't get me wrong.
it isn't that i've completely shunned the idea of being with someone.
i'm still the hopeless romantic, the girl who dreams to be swept off her feet by her knight in shining armor. that's still me, i'm still the princess.
but i'm now the princess who loves herself more, the princess who knows what she deserves and who will not settle for anything less.

now that's girlpower. ;)